Welcome to my life. :)

I am the fucking biggest piece of shit to ever live on this planet. I’m so fucking disappointed in myself, and can never regain what was, and I can never fully regain my self-confidence and dignity. I honestly hate myself for who I am, no one ever needs to be around the stupid bastard I am, and no one ever needs to put up with the burden I have placed upon them. I fucking hate who I am, because I can never live up to the standards, and honestly HATE myself for what I have done. I am seriously breaking down in pieces, and am SO FUCKING worried. I can’t help what I’ve done anymore, and I know that it will never ever happen again. You don’t know how many things I want t do to hurt myself right now, but I really just want to do it to make everything go away. I HATE my life, I HATE what I’ve done, I HATE being myself, and I HATE MYSELF. I can NEVER EVER fucking forget what I’ve seen, what I’ve caused, the pain..oh God. I HATE myself, and I really wish that I could have been a better person. The pain..the agony I inflict on myself is only the beginning. I don’t ever know how things can be back to normal, and I know that I am the DUMBEST STUPIDEST CRAPPIEST FUCKING piece of SHIT ever to live on this planet, and I hate MY.whole.fucking.self. I am terribly sorry for EVERYthing, and I would NEVER ever..ever do that again. Fuck, my life. I don’t deserve to live, after everything. I am a low life piece of shit wandering the planet, with no purpose and a hell of a dumb ass brain. Fuck, everything about me. I hate myself. Fuck. I would do anything for things to go back to the way it was, anything. I just want to blow up, and die literally. Fuck. I hate me.